Sooo...this is my first blog post. I plan to use it to document my life, moods, encounters in life and as an outlet for me. I feel so restricted at times by my own feelings and fear of what other people think...like a prisoner in my own body. I plan to use this space to let it all out and just be me.
Today I felt empty....like nothing was going for me. I was sad and needed an outlet. That's what drove me to create this blog. My husband, Dan is out of town and I'm at work feeling completely alone. I work as a media buyer and everyday that passes I hate my job more and more. The people, our clients, the procedures....it's just not for me anymore. I mean C'mon...it's not like I'm doing anything good for humanity. I'm selling DR products for a bunch of greedy power hungry ass wholes. Girls Gone Wild is my newest client if that paints picture for you. That was the final nail in the coffin for me. My dream would be to work for a non-profit. That would give me great happiness. Life needs a meaning...a purpose...and for me I have none. Just going through the motions Mo-Fr yearning for more and dreaming about the weekend.
Recently, Dan and I decided to go off the pill. This was THRILLING to me. To think I would have more of a purpose in life and be responsible for another human being sound so rewarding. I can't wait for the day that things take a dramatic turn for the better. This too shall soon pass and I'll be on to a more happy life soon enough.....
